Posts Tagged ‘stupid’

i dredge you up

take a look at your Facebook feed

God, i’m so stupid

i fall for faces

and only faces

i fall not in love

just feel and reel because

my pulse picks up

but you’re voting for Trump

you’re so stupid

brain fried by California sunshine

drunk on forty’s you find on the street

or get from a guy with a shaved head

who you give head in a port-a-potty

That last bit is semi-speculation

but i can’t help but feel bad

because you don’t know what you’re doing

as you grab glowsticks

and hit up a pride parade

hang out with your frat boy bros

and blow each other cuz there’s nothing else to do

since there’s a drought

And i hate that i actually felt

something for you

It’s only because of the way you look

Everybody makes mistakes.

It’s with everyone.

It’s worse with you.

 

Some disconnect between

brain and tongue and larynx,

syllables stack onto each other,

come out as just sounds.

 

There are little to no words

in my brain, blackness is it.

Being near you short circuits my speech.

 

I’m always searching for an answer

or reply with strangers.

You’re not a stranger,

you just make me feel strange.

 

I can’t think of anything to say,

though I want to be witty,

I want to sound smart.

 

My mouths opens and closes

like I’m imitating a fish. I turn red.

 

It’s with everyone.

It’s the worst with you.

Yes. The dreaded disease that plagues all writers at some point or another: Writer’s Block.

I’ve dealt with this numerous (which is to say: many, many, many) times, the longest time having lasted about two weeks.

So, how does one deal with this? I’m gonna’ have to go back to Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott, for this.

In that book (which I highly recommend) Anne Lamott addresses the fact that sometimes, you just need to LEAVE IT ALONE. Welcome distractions. By this I mean go do something else. Take a walk downtown, or visit a park. Watch a movie. Listen to music. Distract yourself from writing anything. In all honesty, this is what works best for me. If you sleep on an idea, or just ignore it and get out there, you’ll find inspiration from the real world!

In these cases, you can always ring a small memo pad, or a notebook, or your laptop, and just jot down whatever you see. Write a description of the sidewalk. Write whatever. You could even eavesdrop and write down what people are saying as dialogue (tip: if you have your laptop or iPod, you can pretend to listen to music by putting your headphones on, but not actually playing anything). And before you call me out for being creepy, authors do this since Jane Austen’s time, the technique has just been refined.   

Another thing you can try, which is just the opposite of what I previously suggested, is just write. I know, I know, this is writer’s block. It’s where you just sit and stare at a blank piece of paper or your computer screen and nothing’s coming. Hear me out. Sometimes all you can do is just write about ANYTHING. The first idea that pops into your head, however stupid, dull, or all around crappy it may seem, just WRITE ABOUT IT! Heck, you could even write about writer’s block (*cough*), and there ya go!

So what if you write something that’s crappy? There’s always something to unearth, no matter how frustrating it may be to find.